As I sit on the long journey back to London from Aberystwyth, where I have just spent a gorgeous week’s holiday relaxing, eating and seeing my boyfriend, I can’t help but feel quite sad about saying ‘goodbye for now’ again.
Being in a long distance relationship, saying goodbye for a period of (sometimes unknown) time, kind of comes with the territory. Despite this, it never gets any easier when the dreaded departure time of that train creeps up on me.
After my initial sadness, and – frankly – self-indulgent moping, I realised that it was very silly for me to be feeling such a way after having such a fantastic week full of new memories and meeting new people.
It’s very much a human affliction where we will always want more. Unfortunately this affliction also means that it becomes increasingly difficult to be happy with what we do have, thus sending us humans into a spiral of unhappiness of never being simply content.
Having pondered this for the near-six hour journey, I decided that I should smile and appreciate the beautiful week I had with the fantastic company, delicious food and peaceful silence of the countryside.
So instead of wallowing in self-pity, as much as it will be hard, I will try and simply be glad of the fact that I am very happy. I won’t ruin it with what could be: because at the end of the day, there’s nothing I can do about it.
I have acquired some extremely fond memories to now cherish and make me smile no matter the weather. On to looking forward to the future, getting back into my routine and seeing my wonderful friends in London.
After note:
It’s Monday and I’ve come into work grinning my head off. After spending a lovely evening at home catching up with the girls, my lovely work colleagues, whom I realised I have missed, have welcomed me back with open arms. I am smiling ecstatically retelling my holiday adventures. The brief moping has been replaced with a warm-fuzzy feeling of happiness and looking forward to getting back stuck into work.
It’s easy to get caught up in wishing for different things, but I am so grateful for my constants: my job, my home, my friends and my family. Smiles all round!
